Deerly Beloved
Okay, so I couldn't resist the punny title, but it's accurate to say that I love, not like, deer. Since as a little tot, when my granddad rescued an orphan deer and brought Bambi home to stay with us for almost a year, until he was old enough to be taken away in a government truck to the Shubenacadie wildlife reserve, my heart has belonged to beautiful, soft-eyed deer.
I used to feed him from first a bottle and then a dish, and I fed him handfuls of a particular fuzzy pink weed with a woody stalk that he could eat all day. With sore hands it was hard to pick enough, but I didn't care. I loved him with all the passion of childhood when loves are so strong, so full of all the colours of emotion. Me and my Nannie called him home from the woods behind the house where he would wander during the day. And he knew his name and came for grub. Just like me.
The day the truck called for him and I had to let them take him was sad. I watched and watched until he was out of sight. I noticed that his spots were fading to a soft brown coat. And I'm sure his eyes looked sad too. He may even have cried as much as I did. That I don't remember but I never forgot him, not to this day.
This past week on a campimg vacation with my daughter to the woods and beautiful beaches of Nova Scotia's South Shore, we had the chance to see two deer close up. And both times we were driving in a car. Once at dusk a pale beige buck paused for a few minutes before turning and leaping into the darkening bushes, but the second time was magic. I was driving down a small road to a picnic park on the way to breakfast and there she was on the side of the road, just a few yards away. Close enough that as I spoke to her she looked directly into my eyes and nodded her head a little, like a Japanese bow of greeting. Another car came after a few minutes and scared her, but it had been enough.
You know how the expression dearly beloved is adressed to those gathered at a wedding, the family of the bride and groom, the special ones that are invited to witness this important part of the lives of the celebrants - the ones they want to see the most and be seen by. It seems that, as I think about growing old, I want to end where I began, recognizing all the important loves of my life - you know, my family.
Here is a picture taken by my beautiful daughter, R.J.O. She's just off to the left as the deer and I meet eyes. It's taken from inside the car. Please click on the picture to see it better.